omg yesterday was soo much FUN

like . i took jenny to chuch coz pauline was goin trik or treatin . n we were ugna go in pjs. but it was too cold . n then like . i saw STAFFYYY !!! *love you !!! =]* . n then .. i saw MATT !!! n sam ! i didnt expect to see them there . czo i touht they had tutor . iw as GUNA call them =] . lol neways . so much funn !! it was sucha coinciDINK how teh leaders were randomnly choosin ppl n matt n sam got chosen on the saym team ... =] . n then i wasli ke "let me be on their team !!*tinks in head* . n then i was chosen on their team !muahahha ! n then jenny was on my team too ! n then we were playin a game n i was the "plastic princess" *cry* . n i hadta stuff my fayc into nasty sugery stuff . ewww . lol . n THEN we played more gayms . n then . uhmm .. * im seyin n then alot lol * i won a relient K cd from the raffle . woot woot . n me n jenny took sams gloves coz it was cold .  JENNY ! I KNO YOUR SECRET !MUAHAHAHHAH ! =]  n then i was happy . coz matt n me actlly TALKED . muahah alol . tats like ... a miracle fOe me =] lol

neways . yup . today . i went to krn school n foe SAT bahn . ericc was throwin stuff at me so i threw stuff baQ . =] . n uhm .. we got candy . lol

yup tas it foe now

my goal : mayk my parents get me a digital camera foe x mas .. even though theyre gettin me a computer ... i want both =] .

-OuttIeee !

Sand and Stone

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"

The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND, AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE
^ yay ! i wana sey a special yO to - paulineE . Diane . Jennifer . Annie . Kaleb . Steve . Charlie . Matt . Joey . Tiffay . Stafffy . Jenniieleee

..n now .. foe the bitch

 ! i knew it . haha its a shame how you kept on denying it .. n then you get caught . lmao . suxx to be you . tas y you shoodnt hav done it in the first place . . juss lettin yoo kno .. yor porfyl is describin you . you whore . if you got sumthin to sey . sey it to my fayc . not behynd my back like some punkass wuss wood do . n btw ... im not tryin to get eveyone to hate you .. they already DID . coz your fuckin bitchy attitude . so take your shit to someone hoo cares ..but then agen .. nobudy cares foe a piece of trash like you

im out =]

im a self centered biotch tat takes everything in this world foe granted . i need a lot of attention . i juss realized tat . y was i born in this world ? to mayk my sweet caring parents worry bout my actions 24/7 ? to hurt my  bro tat juss wantsa teach me the nice things in lyf ? to be a trouble mayker n a rebel ? to complain about everything tat my parents do wen really , theyr doin everything they ken foe me and my futre ? wen theyr so loving ..loving enuff to give up wat they want foe me ? my parents dont even spend HALF as much money on themselves then on me .they always puot me first. they take me n my brother out to dinner every sunday n not ONCE was it sumthin tat we didnt want to eat. its always  " wat do you guys want to eat ? we were thinkin bout *watever they felt like eating* " .  but y did it take so long foe me to figure tat out ? y do i complain so much bout everythihn ? y didnt i learn before ? im juss so self centered n into my own world i even care to think bout how the most important ppl in my lyf feel n do foe me . i need to be punished .

OMFG ! my FREAKIN compter is soo slow it took 20 mins to come to this page . im so fuggin serious ! tas y i coodnt update in a while . but my dady sed hed get me a new computer by the end of December . arghh . neways

doode . i cried myself to sleep last nyt . coz i was thinkkin bout how today wood be the last day i wood hav wid the SJKPC unnies n oppahs ... agen . i hate this lil " separation" thing . sigh

the revival was a blast

friday : after the great message Pastor Milo Cho gave us , my unnies n oppaz stayed at church n practiced the Skit / singing . then everyone drove < me n my bro got a ryd wid my cousin > to Lyonz at MIDNYT n ate . <thanx mike oppa foe bein so nice ! lol thanx also foe buyin me n my bro food ! love you lol >it was so fun . i put ketchup at the end of my french fry n sed " LOOK ! IT S AMATCH !" n then wen you put BARBECUE SAUCE ON THE TIP .. ITS A BURNED OUT MATCH !!" lol lmao .i got home at 1 am . my dad was like . WHERE WERE YOU GUYS . lol

Saturday

we learned bout demon possed people n bout having great faith . it was kynda freaky . coz this one lady from this on tribe coodnt speak enlighs . but wen the missionairez were like .. prayin or watever . this lady got possesed n started running n locked herself into this room wid windows. wen the missionaires gathered around to pray foe her , she sudneely knew everyones nayms n was seyin all their past sins in ENGLISH . so freakin freaky . nt his OHTER story but im too scared to type it out . its 11 30 rite now lol

sunday : today ... my last day . agen . fuck this . as soon as i get my permit . im goin back . i cant stand how im spearted with teh ppl i knew n was so close wid . 6 years man ... 6 years . i like KFBC n everything . but i dont feel as comfortable n know everyone as well as i kno the unnies , oppas, n some of my lil kids tat i knew since they were born . this suxx . the lil infant babies i babysat n loved so much .. they wont even remember hoo i am . like noah , leah , n arghh *cry*  . i treid takin pix . but everyone left early coz tommrws a school day . so .. yeh .

well . thanx fer everyone at SJKPC hoo mayd me feel at home agen . lovee you guys n miss you SOO much .

other news : im having a concert in December wid other kids in my voice Lesson industry thingy . n my teacher's maykin me sing sumthin in GERMAN > ARGH < . its called Wiegenlied . n teh lyrics are like way diffrenetly pronouced then theyr wrliten . foe ex . guten A bend gut nacht Mit Rosen be Dacht " is promouced " gOOten a benT gOOt Nachat . mEEt rosen *roll the tongue* beh dachat" n Nag lein" is pronouced "neckline" . wtf . lol . n the other song is the Beauty n the Beast theme song . so yup yup .

ayt outtie . im feelin homesick ..except foe church .. so i guess its churchsick . the lass three dayz at SJKPC were the bestest days of my lyf . thanx fOe maykin it so memberable unnies n oopas . miss yah . LOTZ *cry* imma go cry to sleep n hav big puffy eyes fOe the filed trip tommrw . hah

 < BTW ! marbis oppa . [my cousin] was tellin us bout hte Chain Saw Massacre thingy while he was driving us home .. its HELLA freaky ! ahhhhh a real live FOOTAGE ?!?!?! i dint kno it was based on a freakin troo story ! they havnt even caught  the freakin killer its a freakin open case !! AHH !! but it was like 30 years ago so hes prob like .. 60 .. ah haha wid his lil chainsaw goin *squeek squeek * lol

outtie - thanx gOd fOe lettin me spend time wid both you N my sjkpc unnies . Great Faith

imma byt off bertina LOL

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